This is probably a terrible idea.
It's just that ever since Sweeney, of all people, put the idea into her head, she's had a hard time getting rid of it. Maybe it's because she saw a few women in suits up at Kagura over New Year's -- a reminder that such things are done, if not in large numbers. Or maybe it's because slightly looser formal wear seems, incongruously, like an easier stepping stone to manage than the unsettling normalcy of tight denim. Or maybe it's simply because there's no one to say she shouldn't, which is near enough to should that she can't help but consider it.
Consider it enough to want to try it. Maybe. Just to... to see what it would be like.
But she needs help, is the thing, and no idea who to ask. Thomas is entirely out of the question; she doesn't even want him to know she's thinking about this until she has her own thoughts in order. She considers Sweeney for a few seconds longer than she probably should, if only because he's the one who started this, but she can't imagine he'd be very, er... patient. And she needs someone who will be patient, and supportive, and kind enough not to tell her outright that she's being completely ridiculous, and reasonable enough to convince her she's not walking a bloody cliff's edge.
Which is how she ends up texting Nina to see if she's available for an outing, and shortly thereafter finding herself fidgeting on her doorstep like a first-time petty criminal. God, this is mortifying. She's already blushing, though hopefully that could be mistaken as a result of the chill, or the walk.
She takes a deep, steadying breath, then knocks.
It's just that ever since Sweeney, of all people, put the idea into her head, she's had a hard time getting rid of it. Maybe it's because she saw a few women in suits up at Kagura over New Year's -- a reminder that such things are done, if not in large numbers. Or maybe it's because slightly looser formal wear seems, incongruously, like an easier stepping stone to manage than the unsettling normalcy of tight denim. Or maybe it's simply because there's no one to say she shouldn't, which is near enough to should that she can't help but consider it.
Consider it enough to want to try it. Maybe. Just to... to see what it would be like.
But she needs help, is the thing, and no idea who to ask. Thomas is entirely out of the question; she doesn't even want him to know she's thinking about this until she has her own thoughts in order. She considers Sweeney for a few seconds longer than she probably should, if only because he's the one who started this, but she can't imagine he'd be very, er... patient. And she needs someone who will be patient, and supportive, and kind enough not to tell her outright that she's being completely ridiculous, and reasonable enough to convince her she's not walking a bloody cliff's edge.
Which is how she ends up texting Nina to see if she's available for an outing, and shortly thereafter finding herself fidgeting on her doorstep like a first-time petty criminal. God, this is mortifying. She's already blushing, though hopefully that could be mistaken as a result of the chill, or the walk.
She takes a deep, steadying breath, then knocks.
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Date: 2019-01-08 06:45 pm (UTC)From:She tips her head when she realizes Greta is blushing. "I know my state is a scandal, but it can't be all that bad, can it?" she asks as she pulls her coat on and slips into a pair of flats. She pats her pockets to make sure she has everything before stepping out into the hall with Greta.
"Where are we off to? You were very mysterious."
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Date: 2019-01-08 07:48 pm (UTC)From:Well. Nina's not inherently scandalous. Greta's far less certain about their current mission.
"I, er, don't exactly know. The mall, I suppose? It's just..." she worries her lower lip beneath her teeth, then shakes her head at herself. She can't believe she's doing this, and her blush deepens as she searches for a proper approach to something that isn't all that proper to begin with. "I was... thinking... that I might like to, er... branch out, a little. In the, er... wardrobe department." She glances furtively over at Nina, both hoping and fearing that she'll just read her mind and figure out exactly what she's getting at.
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Date: 2019-01-08 09:43 pm (UTC)From:Maybe she isn't as much a scandal here as she might have been elsewhere, but she still turns heads now and then. Especially when she goes out to bars.
Nina lifts an eyebrow as they head toward the stairs. She tries to take the stairs as much as she can, still, even though she lives on the top floor. And going down is easier than coming up.
"Branch out like... trousers?" she tries, trying to sort out what exactly Greta means. She can't recall having ever seen Greta in pants, but maybe she's just missed it.
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Date: 2019-01-08 09:52 pm (UTC)From:She divides her focus between explaining herself and making sure Nina doesn't stumble on the stairs, which results in a bit more dithering than she'd like, but, well. "Sort of?" she hesitantly admits. "I can't really imagine wearing jeans -- they all just look so tight -- but... oh, this is going to sound ridiculous. It was actually Sweeney who gave me the bloody idea, which shouldn't be a mark in its favor, necessarily, but, um. Perhaps a..." her voice drops a dozen or so embarrassed decibels, "... a suit...?"
She can feel her cheeks turning scarlet. She's probably a fair match for Nina's dress, at this point.
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Date: 2019-01-08 10:04 pm (UTC)From:"Good, this is perfect. I'll help you with some suits and you can help me, maybe, settle the matter of baby names," she sighs, long-suffering. "I always meant to talk about it with Geralt, and we batted a few back and forth but-- well. There was time yet to settle on anything."
And now he's gone, and a momentary sadness passes through her but Nina tries to push it down. Nina puts a smile back on.
"Are you worried about what Thomas will think?"
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Date: 2019-01-08 10:22 pm (UTC)From:She remembers Chloe with an internal pang, and thinks it might be quite nice to be dashing, if she could.
The thought of helping with baby names perks her up a little. In a perfect world, she wouldn't have to be a sounding board, but she would like to help. She glances over at Nina's wavering expression, and gives her arm a comforting pat. "Just name the baby after me," she advises with a small, gentle smile. "Problem solved."
Of course, Nina's next question cuts straight to the heart of her anxiety, and she covers her face with her free hand. "Desperately. I suppose it matters most what I think, because if I don't like it, it'll just have been a lark and it won't matter. But..."
But what if she does like it? Thomas has never objected to her fashion choices before, but they've also never strayed all that far from what was typical of her time -- or his. Necklines are more daring these days, and hemlines shorter, and she's worn sleeveless gowns before, but even the most daring ballgown feels a far cry from a suit. He might not want anything to do with it. She might look like a child playing dress-up out of his closet, to him.
It is too much to worry about too soon, but here they are, and she suddenly has to swallow past the lump in her throat.
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Date: 2019-01-08 10:26 pm (UTC)From:She has more money than she knows what to do with, and burning through it will hardly make a little dent in the nest egg she has tucked away, just in case.
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Date: 2019-01-08 11:57 pm (UTC)From:She's being ridiculous. Even if it does turn out to be nothing more than a bit of dress-up, it's harmless enough. And since when has she let the prospect of her partner's poor opinion stop her from doing something she had a mind to?
Well. It's not just Thomas's poor opinion that worries her. And fancy dress has an inherent frivolity she's never presumed the world owed her, unlike an un-Cursed home and a healthy family. It's a lark, as she said, not a bloody moral crusade.
But Nina's level-headed attitude helps. "Thank you," she says sheepishly. Then, feeling compelled to defend her partner, she adds, "I don't think he'd be too fussed about propriety, really." She's successfully coaxed him over a few lines in the sand already, leaning heavily on the fact that so many things in Darrow don't matter the way they did back home.
"It's just that he might not like it." And however much she likes it, she can't imagine comfortably going about in trousers or suits if Thomas isn't a fan. Half the fun of dressing up is doing it for someone besides yourself.
The insistence on treating her earns Nina a startled look. "I--that's not--" she gives her head a brisk shake. "For goodness' sake, you're having a baby. You're not spending that sort of money on me."
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Date: 2019-01-09 12:19 am (UTC)From:She manages to sound prim at the last part as they leave the stairwell. Nina adjusts her coat - it's too small and she can't really close it over her belly, but it'll keep her warm none the less. Besides, she can be her own walking heater if she wants to.
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Date: 2019-01-09 12:51 am (UTC)From:"How--?" she starts to ask before cutting herself off. Nina clearly doesn't intend to give details. After a few moments of silent struggle, she finally comes up with a carefully articulated, "Should I be concerned?"
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Date: 2019-01-09 01:32 am (UTC)From:Another flicker of sadness, but also a sort of fondness. She'd liked sitting with Dorian and watching Geralt and Bull and Krem work on the cabin. Now two of those men were gone, and she missed them.
"Sorry," she says after a moment with a little hiccup. "I've had quite enough of losing people lately, you see."
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Date: 2019-01-09 06:49 pm (UTC)From:Greta shakes her head in response to Nina's apology. "There's no need to apologize," she says, gentle but firm, as she shifts to wrap one of her arms around Nina's shoulders. "You've had rather a rough go of it."
She gives her a gentle squeeze, and a minute to compose herself, before asking, "So, where exactly are you taking me?"
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Date: 2019-01-09 10:36 pm (UTC)From:She knows that he's trying to go into selling ready-made as well as his tailoring and bespoke business, but she hasn't thought to ask how far along he is in all that. Bardolf's will be easy.
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Date: 2019-01-10 02:44 am (UTC)From:Then, of course, she realizes it's all rather a moot point. He wouldn't be working during the daylight hours.
"I didn't realize he was aiming to have things on the racks," she admits, as much as a distraction as out of genuine curiosity. She knows a little of Krem's business, largely by way of Aggie and Bull, and had got the impression he did tailoring and made things to order. "Is he branching out, then?"
Perhaps that means he's dreadfully busy, and that even Nina's backing wouldn't result in anything ready to wear between now and whenever she loses her nerve.
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Date: 2019-01-10 07:20 pm (UTC)From:Nina hiccups a bit and looks down at her belly almost reproachfully, then smooths her hand over it. "I swear this child sleeps but two hours a day and spends the rest of it kicking me in the liver. Or lodging its saints-beloved head under my lungs."
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Date: 2019-01-10 11:37 pm (UTC)From:She'd have to check them again for specifics, but there might be something about not using whatever notoriety the show gave her to advertise for other things. It's not a detail that had stuck with her, as it wasn't something she could quite imagine at the time -- anyone caring enough what she thought to go out and buy things, en masse, on the strength of her recommendation.
Nina hiccups, and Greta bites back a smile. "You've a rowdy tenant, I take it." It's the sort of thing she'd expect Nina to technically be able to use her magic for, but she also wouldn't blame her for not wanting to meddle with her unborn child that way.
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Date: 2019-01-11 06:53 pm (UTC)From:"Sometimes rowdy, other times I end up eating something spicy just to make sure we're still alright," she says with a faint smile at her belly. "I can usually hear its heartbeat, though, if I just listen quietly."
It's the same way that she'd hear someone else's, the only difference is that this little heartbeat is inside of her.
"Sometimes I do a little something to calm it down, but for the most part I've tried to be hands off. I'm not a healer and I don't-- I don't really know what meddling would do," she confesses.
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:56 pm (UTC)From:It also means she's famous for baking, which she knows how to do well. On the other hand, it would feel rather disingenuous to model herself as some fashion-forward icon when she hardly intends to walk about looking immaculate all the time.
"My arm would beg to differ," she says, giving Nina a light, friendly nudge. She's certainly capable of healing to a point, and Greta hasn't had so much as a twinge since she worked her magic. "But a baby is a delicate thing to meddle with. I don't blame you for taking care, on that front."
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Date: 2019-01-12 03:09 pm (UTC)From:She knows Inej desperately wants a family of her own someday, and that having a friend that's pregnant is a strange practice run of learning and helping.
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Date: 2019-01-12 04:39 pm (UTC)From:It's not the main reason she's so leery of going down that road with Thomas, but it's certainly a factor.
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Date: 2019-01-12 06:57 pm (UTC)From:"I don't even have a name picked out. It felt like everything could wait and then-- Well, I didn't imagine I'd be doing all this on my own."
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Date: 2019-01-12 07:49 pm (UTC)From:She pats Nina's arm, then says, "Tell you what: you help get me into a suit without any embarrassing public meltdowns, and I'll help you think up names. You must have a few ideas picked out."
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Date: 2019-01-12 07:56 pm (UTC)From:She steers them into Bardolf's revolving door and stays close to Greta, keeping her gentle but firm grip on her arm as they had toward the escalators and men's wear.
"I have a few rolling around, but-- well, Geralt had some ridiculous ideas but I was at least depending on us having a discussion about it."
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Date: 2019-01-12 08:02 pm (UTC)From:But she's never been there to shop for herself.
"Well, we needn't entertain the ridiculous ideas," she says, grateful for the distraction even as she finds it a little hard to focus. "Did he seem to like any of yours more than others?"
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Date: 2019-01-12 08:08 pm (UTC)From:She pulls something off the rack and holds it up to Greta with a discerning look. The trouble with men's suits is they're built for, well, men. Greta will be more narrow in the shoulders, but that isn't going to stop Nina from trying. She'll just stick to smaller sizes and be creative with imagining how it will look tailored.
"Katerina Alina. Eric Aleksy. Hold this, we need to find trousers."
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Date: 2019-01-12 09:01 pm (UTC)From:“That has a nice rhythm either way,” Greta notes after repeating it a few times in her head. “Bit like a waltz.”
She accepts the clothes Nina thrusts at her, managing not to make any absurd, wordless noises when she mentions trousers. God, they’re actually doing this.
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Date: 2019-01-13 01:05 am (UTC)From:As she heads for the dressing rooms mid-way between men's wear and women's formal, Nina plucks up a tie.
"Now, let's see how this all looks."
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Date: 2019-01-13 04:47 am (UTC)From:But then she remembers the way Sweeney had looked when he'd insisted she'd look fantastic. And she realizes that fleeing now wouldn't make her feel better as much as it would make her feel cowardly.
No sense in getting ahead of herself. She'll try the bloody thing on, see how she feels about it, and save worrying about Thomas's opinion for when it actually becomes relevant.
"Right, I'm going to need all the help," she mutters, ushering Nina into the dressing room as if they're being pursued. "I mean, I have a good idea of how it all goes; it'll just be like--like undressing Thomas, but backwards." She realizes how absurd she sounds only after the words have left her mouth, and then she groans under her breath, her eyes falling shut so she won't have to see whatever face Nina's making.
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Date: 2019-01-13 05:00 am (UTC)From:She doesn't balk at the idea of another woman undressing with her in the stall. The Second Army didn't have separate barracks for boys and girls, so they'd all gotten over each other fairly quickly.
When Greta mentions undressing Thomas backwards, she peers over her shoulder and gives a wink. "Just like that."
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Date: 2019-01-13 05:11 am (UTC)From:"No, I wouldn't have high expectations for something right off the rack," Greta absently agrees. That, at least, is very familiar territory; almost everything she owns she either made to measure or tailored to fit. She understands the convenience of buying off the rack, and there are items that don't have to fit perfectly, but she's not used to going about in things that are only sort of her size.
Once she's down to just her underthings, she takes a breath and motions for the trousers. "Might as well start with the weirdest bit."
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Date: 2019-01-13 10:30 pm (UTC)From:Nina smiles and hands over the trousers. She finishes unbuttoning the shirt and passes that over next, tipping her head as she watches Greta get dressed. She can see the possibility, certainly.
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Date: 2019-01-13 11:25 pm (UTC)From:These trousers, at least, are a far cry from skinny jeans. It takes her some awkward maneuvering to get into them, and some of the looseness is doubtless down to them being the wrong size for her, but they're not designed to lie like a second skin. They're sort of silky, actually. She lifts first one foot and then the other like a fractious horse, then hums in a manner that's uncertain, but not displeased. The shirt is easier to manage, despite having many more buttons, and she tucks it in before looking up at Nina.
She doesn't quite have the courage to turn around and face her own reflection in the mirrors behind her. "What do you think?"
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Date: 2019-01-14 03:43 am (UTC)From:"Button the front," she suggests. As Greta does, Nina carefully pulls the fabric on the back of the jacket, giving a better idea of Greta's waist under it all.
"You really do like dashing, darling."
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Date: 2019-01-14 04:18 pm (UTC)From:"... Oh," Greta says quietly, blinking at her own reflection. It feels a little like when she first saw Sara: someone with a shared face but few other similarities to speak of. Because she, naturally, would never wear anything like this. Except that she is. Her back straightens unconsciously, and she makes an astonished little noise before finally forming a full sentence. "It's... it's not bad." She could be talking about the look of it or the feel of it; either way, she's failing to manifest any of the shame she'd anticipated over this sartorial deviance.
But she can also recognize that there's something off about it -- something besides the imperfect fit, which Nina's bobby pins can only do so much for -- and after a moment of pensive self-study, she murmurs, "I'd have to do something different with my hair..."
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Date: 2019-01-15 04:03 am (UTC)From:Nina grins, peering over Greta's shoulder as the woman takes herself in. "We could put it up. Slick it back, like a man's style. Or we could do something very feminine but still pulled back," she muses, considering different looks.
She lets go of the jacket so she can gently pull Greta's hair back into a twist. She holds it in one hand and reaches around to tug a few strands of hair loose to frame her face.
"I think people would fall over if you walked into a party like this, darling. And I mean that in a very good way."
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Date: 2019-01-15 06:11 pm (UTC)From:As Nina soon demonstrates, pulling it back into a temporary twist, fiddling with it a little until there are a few loose strands hanging artfully around her face. She looks like... well. She looks like the sort of woman she might gawk at during some party or other, stunned and perhaps a little impressed by such a bold fashion choice. (And then, of course, she'd feel silly for being so surprised by something that is hardly unprecedented, and only as striking as it is because she's a bit of a bumpkin, still.)
Well, look at the bumpkin, now.
Suddenly, she's grinning. "Can we try a waistcoat instead of the jacket? I want to see how that looks."
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Date: 2019-01-16 12:17 am (UTC)From:She comes back and takes it off the hanger once she's back in the dressing room.
"People's jaws will hit the floor if you do this, you know. And I mean that in a good way. Saints, but you look so terribly dashing."
She knows she's used that word already, but it really does fit, she thinks.
"We can find you some nice heeled boots to give you a height boost."
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Date: 2019-01-16 04:16 am (UTC)From:Especially if it meant giving other people a delightful sort of shock. She turns in front of the mirror, taking herself in, and bites back another giddy smile.
She's shucked off the jacket by the time Nina returns, and she beams at the compliment. "You really think so?" she asks as Nina helps her into the waistcoat. "I've never been dashing before." That was a word reserved for Princes back home, or Knights. Not women, and certainly not peasant women. It's rather thrilling to think she might qualify, here.
With an amused snort, she adds, "We'll have to be careful with the heels. It'll spoil the whole effect if I fall on my face because I can't walk in the bloody things."
She buttons the waistcoat, then takes in the new look, her lower lip caught pensively between her teeth. "You know, if the blouse were different -- the sleeves a bit looser, maybe -- it might look a little more feminine, but no less formal." She still likes the way the suit had looked, but she's also wondering if it might be a little easier to adjust to a less extreme change.
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:30 am (UTC)From:She can already picture it and she's really rather excited about the prospect. "I'll talk to Krem. Let me get you something bespoke, Greta, please. I know it'll cost a bit but I'm not even going to miss it, I promise you."
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Date: 2019-01-18 02:40 am (UTC)From:She hesitates at the offer, mostly on principle. Part of her wonders if it'll be worth going the bespoke route if she ends up with something her fiancé finds off-putting; she doesn't want Nina to spend a significant sum on something that might end up quietly stuffed into the back of her closet. But then again, he might love the new look. And if he's on the fence, it might be easier to convince him if she's wearing something perfectly tailored and not trying to sell him on a work in progress.
Besides, if all goes as well as it possibly can and she decides she wants to expand her options, she could probably buy things off the rack and tailor them, herself. They needn't break the bank for every single item in a rotating ensemble.
Greta exhales, playfully defeated. "Just this once. I won't have you buying me an entire bloody wardrobe, and that's final." Her stern look melts into a shy smile, and she adds, "Thank you, though. For all of this." She wouldn't have had the nerve to do this on her own.
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Date: 2019-01-19 01:10 am (UTC)From:Maybe her reasons are a bit selfish: she's dying to see Greta in a proper suit now, something made for her. She really does love seeing women discover something that makes them stand a bit straighter, see themselves different. She blames the flood of hormones for wanting to give Greta a little kiss just then.
"Maybe I'll get something too, just to even the bill."
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Date: 2019-01-19 04:03 pm (UTC)From:None of those things are enough to magically transform 'letting Nina spend an absurd amount of money on her' into an act of pure charity on Greta's part, but at least it helps allay the discomfort she had with the idea.
So she grins, even as she starts to change back into her own things, passing Nina first the waistcoat, then the blouse. "Oh, you should!" she says, both because Nina ought to get something out of this besides satisfaction, and because the whole thing will be more fun and less intimidating if she's not the sole focus. "Then we'll both have something to show off at the end of it."
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Date: 2019-01-20 04:21 pm (UTC)From:"Then maybe we can stop by and see Krem to put the idea in his head and take some measurements. I have no idea what to ask him for, but he's creative. I'm sure he'll think of something I had no idea I wanted until he suggests it."
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Date: 2019-01-22 04:24 am (UTC)From:Once she has herself back in order, she smooths her hands over her skirt and lets them out of the dressing room, helping Nina carry out everything. "I trust Krem is, er... discreet," she half-asks, eyebrows furrowed. She's fairly certain Thomas knows him, and though she isn't sure how often they talk, she doesn't want Thomas finding out about this from anyone but her.
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Date: 2019-01-23 04:05 am (UTC)From:Nina smiles and laces her arm with Greta's after they hang the suit and shirt on a rack just outside the dressing room. "Am I allowed to come to all your fittings? I promise I'll let Krem do his job, I just want to watch."
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Date: 2019-01-25 03:54 am (UTC)From:"Of course," Greta says, giving Nina's arm a squeeze. "I'll need the support. You can keep reminding me that I look dashing." She won't be forgetting that word choice anytime soon, nor the giddy little thrill it gives her.